Tuesday, February 13, 2007,
11:13 PM
Hari ini, Esok dan Seterusnya
Hari ini dadaku bergetar
Terguncang melinu dan mengerang
Ku yakin ku tak salah kerna hatiku
Tak pernah dan tak akan berdusta
Esoknya ku fakir rasa itu
Akan menghilang dengan seiring waktu
Namun ternyata tak berubah
Aku makin tergiur pada dirimu
Dan seterusnya rasa itu slalu terjadi
Dan tak pernah berkurang
Hati ku hanya untuk dirimu
Aku bahagia hanya bila kau bahagia
Aku... jatuh... cinta
Terguncang melinu dan mengerang
Ku yakin ku tak salah kerna hatiku
Tak pernah dan tak akan berdusta
Esoknya ku fakir rasa itu
Akan menghilang dengan seiring waktu
Namun ternyata tak berubah
Aku makin tergiur pada dirimu
Dan seterusnya rasa itu slalu terjadi
Dan tak pernah berkurang
Hati ku hanya untuk dirimu
Aku bahagia hanya bila kau bahagia
Aku... jatuh... cinta
Monday, February 12, 2007,
11:05 PM
Be Strong
Tats exactly wat i have been telling myself for past yrs.. During d moment where i stepped into an atrocious secondary school til i received a title as d leader of the leaders in the school..
Courage and bravery does not onli apply wen facing others. It has greater impact on ones self. Especially wen it involve the matters of the heart. I have been acting strong in front of my fellow prefects, leading them as if i noe exactly wat to do and how to achieve our goals. It worked but yet, i have more difficulty leading myself alone.
I am feeling rather vulnerable right now. As if all tat i've brace through in life is wasted cos i seriously feel lost at d moment. I have always always try n get d things i wan in life. No matter how hard it is. But d walls protecting against d enemy have limits too. Repeated attacking on it will cause it to collapse somehow. And i think mine collapsing soon enough. I'm tired. I'm drained out. Someone lik me hard to say "quit it" and i really really hate it wen i gave up on something that i haven even tried hard enough jus bcos my self confidence suddenly gone jus lik tat. I donno wat and y. It jus did.. Its too soon to move on after a failed relationship but there's a bloody phrase saying "you dont tell ur heart wat to do.. it does things by itself"
I hate guys..
My circles of frenz are 80% guys.. from a normal fren to a gd fren to a best fren.. all guys. Yet i hate guys to d core sometimes. Hypocrites or annoyance or wateva. Guys created a wonderful feeling called love. Yet guys can be as cruel as d sharpest n biggest knife to pierce through our hearts. Gals cant say bluntly "i love you". Gals are d group of pple tat keep on giving stupid n meaningless hints. Especially to a guy who is not interested at all.
Ok stop it..
I not against guys.. Jus feeling pissed. To me i love d accompany of guys cos unlike gals guys onli think of laughter n having fun. Not so much stories and unnecessary gossips lik gals. But i really wish d word "love" did not exist in dis world anymore. I am glad in a thousand yrs tat i will not be a lesbian somehow but i really wish to close my heart to anymore guys. I m sick and tired of all these games. The wonderful feeling wen u r in love and d most shity feeling wen u r hurt. Its jus... A WASTE OF TIME.. I m giving up.. wats d point of u r wanted by alot of guys wen d wan u really love u couldnt get? Same goes for d guys. I am not agaisnt d guys but i am against d thing called love. Its jus sucks. They say everyone are meant to be loved. But not me.. Nah.. At least not for now.. if worst.. never.
Courage and bravery does not onli apply wen facing others. It has greater impact on ones self. Especially wen it involve the matters of the heart. I have been acting strong in front of my fellow prefects, leading them as if i noe exactly wat to do and how to achieve our goals. It worked but yet, i have more difficulty leading myself alone.
I am feeling rather vulnerable right now. As if all tat i've brace through in life is wasted cos i seriously feel lost at d moment. I have always always try n get d things i wan in life. No matter how hard it is. But d walls protecting against d enemy have limits too. Repeated attacking on it will cause it to collapse somehow. And i think mine collapsing soon enough. I'm tired. I'm drained out. Someone lik me hard to say "quit it" and i really really hate it wen i gave up on something that i haven even tried hard enough jus bcos my self confidence suddenly gone jus lik tat. I donno wat and y. It jus did.. Its too soon to move on after a failed relationship but there's a bloody phrase saying "you dont tell ur heart wat to do.. it does things by itself"
I hate guys..
My circles of frenz are 80% guys.. from a normal fren to a gd fren to a best fren.. all guys. Yet i hate guys to d core sometimes. Hypocrites or annoyance or wateva. Guys created a wonderful feeling called love. Yet guys can be as cruel as d sharpest n biggest knife to pierce through our hearts. Gals cant say bluntly "i love you". Gals are d group of pple tat keep on giving stupid n meaningless hints. Especially to a guy who is not interested at all.
Ok stop it..
I not against guys.. Jus feeling pissed. To me i love d accompany of guys cos unlike gals guys onli think of laughter n having fun. Not so much stories and unnecessary gossips lik gals. But i really wish d word "love" did not exist in dis world anymore. I am glad in a thousand yrs tat i will not be a lesbian somehow but i really wish to close my heart to anymore guys. I m sick and tired of all these games. The wonderful feeling wen u r in love and d most shity feeling wen u r hurt. Its jus... A WASTE OF TIME.. I m giving up.. wats d point of u r wanted by alot of guys wen d wan u really love u couldnt get? Same goes for d guys. I am not agaisnt d guys but i am against d thing called love. Its jus sucks. They say everyone are meant to be loved. But not me.. Nah.. At least not for now.. if worst.. never.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007,
4:13 PM
Not Bad
Things are getting better in everything, i see.. yeah finally free from exams and poly yrs are finally over.. i hope.. lol.. I going to admit tat i scared i going to repeat one module. I hate tat module. Ok.. the truth is.. I DON UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING ABOUT TAT MODULE. Anyway now i can onli hope for d best. Since my exams are finally over, i started to enjoy life as much as i can. N wen i say enjoy... i really mean it.
To me all of u noe tat music in band is everything. I sold my soul (jus a matter of speech la hor) for dedicating myself to military/symphonic band ever since i was in secondary 1. Yes.. band is everything to me. My life. Playing d instrument or teaching... they are my life. N so i was more den happy to be offered a part time job as a helper n as an assistant conductor in 2 secondary schools. Wat can be more perfect den dis? Since i finish my poly, while waiting for d next step in life, almost all graduating frenz of mine are looking for a part time job to earn extra cash including me. N i was actually offered to do something tat i really really ever enjoy doing in life. LIFE IS GOOD.. HAHA
And den.. my life was more meaningful n completed wit a special grp of pple.. My 2 bestfrenz and my closest fat chinese guy fren (also my neighbour actually) and dis grp of pple who i barely known for a yr.. my wonderful classmates.. Hafeez, Rabia and Taufik... Today, my bestfren and 3 other classmates jus returned from overnighting at Sp.. LOL.. jus nothing to do n since we graduating no harm done trying to have a get together jus d 5 of us in school. Nothing tat i can say here cos i think i can go on forever in the things we do overnight. wahaha.... But all i can say is its one of d greatest nite i had wit a grp of frenz n i love u guys so much! muax!! =p Pls remember nvr to loose contact ever ok? =)
And again... LIFE IS GOOD
To me all of u noe tat music in band is everything. I sold my soul (jus a matter of speech la hor) for dedicating myself to military/symphonic band ever since i was in secondary 1. Yes.. band is everything to me. My life. Playing d instrument or teaching... they are my life. N so i was more den happy to be offered a part time job as a helper n as an assistant conductor in 2 secondary schools. Wat can be more perfect den dis? Since i finish my poly, while waiting for d next step in life, almost all graduating frenz of mine are looking for a part time job to earn extra cash including me. N i was actually offered to do something tat i really really ever enjoy doing in life. LIFE IS GOOD.. HAHA
And den.. my life was more meaningful n completed wit a special grp of pple.. My 2 bestfrenz and my closest fat chinese guy fren (also my neighbour actually) and dis grp of pple who i barely known for a yr.. my wonderful classmates.. Hafeez, Rabia and Taufik... Today, my bestfren and 3 other classmates jus returned from overnighting at Sp.. LOL.. jus nothing to do n since we graduating no harm done trying to have a get together jus d 5 of us in school. Nothing tat i can say here cos i think i can go on forever in the things we do overnight. wahaha.... But all i can say is its one of d greatest nite i had wit a grp of frenz n i love u guys so much! muax!! =p Pls remember nvr to loose contact ever ok? =)
And again... LIFE IS GOOD
Saturday, February 03, 2007,
2:34 PM
Miracles Happen =)
Yeah.. Miracles happen.. I really thank god for d immediate effect.. haha.. my post yesterday is complaining abt life, abt my friends. N tat same afternoon wen i went out for my driving theory lesson someone called. D friendliness in his voice n d sudden call suprised me. Den right after tat i went back to my secondary school as we have alumni practice every friday nite. N another dear fren of mine (who i was also complaining abt on blog yesterday) suddenly turn up n wanna meet me b4 gg in Shuqun sec. D whole nite we laugh n made jokes jus lik d old times. I felt really really weird. I jus complain abt them n they jus all come back to me. N its assured tat none of them had read my blog yet. Tat proves greatly even if no one hear u cry, Allah did.. N i thank allah for d miracle. He noe more of ourselves even better den we do.
So ya a really nice n unexpected suprise tat touched me yesterday. Hisham is right.. i m jus being silly.. lol.. jus hope we can get together more often now we all graduating soon ya?
Luv ya both
My bestest fren,
Nuraziah & Hisham =>
So ya a really nice n unexpected suprise tat touched me yesterday. Hisham is right.. i m jus being silly.. lol.. jus hope we can get together more often now we all graduating soon ya?
Luv ya both
My bestest fren,
Nuraziah & Hisham =>
