Sunday, February 22, 2009,
8:14 PM
haiyoooo.. haha
Everything seems to be back to normal.. its weird still but better...
I guess its just the ups and downs in life that we have to go through.. no matter what, the worst downs that i ever experience is something went wrong with me and my darling.. its the worst feeling ever to make him upset.. that i realise now i had better control of myself.
I used to be "all abt me all abt me!!" and i never had anyone blend with my demands so well and so much as him.. he's the star of my life and also... i think he spoiling me too much.. =x haha
But i learn the hard way then... Its been 500 days... well, 501 days today.. and we never had a really big quarrel that end up in mentioning about break up all tat..alhamdulillah don have... we still in our "honeymoon" period actually where everything is still as sweet and excited to meet all those.. the first relationship that ever make me feel this way.. FINALLY....haha
As I mentioned, i being spoiled too much and i learn the hard way. I realise what make me in total fear and really panic is when he is angry... bcos of me. I was really upset about the huge row me and my bestie had a couple of weeks ago that i actually cried. But its cos my darling is with me that i handle it well enough. Tats when I realise if the same thing were to happen wit my darling instead, omg.. i donno how will i be...
So I recently make him really angry, also wateva i said is not true, only to see how he will react. He actually really blow up and tats where i realise the hard way of wat will happen to us if we r having a big problem. It hits me really hard how much he meant to me up til now and how much we have an impact on each of our lives. Neither he nor I can survive if anything serious and bad where to happen.
I had better control of myself cos as days went by wit him.. the sacrifies he made for me.. n how upset i could make him... wateva he do wrong now, unintentionally of cos, i seldom get angry already.. if i do, it will be onli a few minutes.. den i will tell d devil in me tat its alrite and SMILE! cos i have done more wrong to him n he never take it to the heart.
Cos i am like that... if someone really deserves a pay back for all his/her kindness, i will automatically pay them back d same.. not d same but double more den wat the have done to me. So yea.. its killing me how i had to control my short temper alot now a days... but i noe its all worth it..
Everything is finally worth it to a guy lik him.. =)
Cheers
Ctcat
I guess its just the ups and downs in life that we have to go through.. no matter what, the worst downs that i ever experience is something went wrong with me and my darling.. its the worst feeling ever to make him upset.. that i realise now i had better control of myself.
I used to be "all abt me all abt me!!" and i never had anyone blend with my demands so well and so much as him.. he's the star of my life and also... i think he spoiling me too much.. =x haha
But i learn the hard way then... Its been 500 days... well, 501 days today.. and we never had a really big quarrel that end up in mentioning about break up all tat..alhamdulillah don have... we still in our "honeymoon" period actually where everything is still as sweet and excited to meet all those.. the first relationship that ever make me feel this way.. FINALLY....haha
As I mentioned, i being spoiled too much and i learn the hard way. I realise what make me in total fear and really panic is when he is angry... bcos of me. I was really upset about the huge row me and my bestie had a couple of weeks ago that i actually cried. But its cos my darling is with me that i handle it well enough. Tats when I realise if the same thing were to happen wit my darling instead, omg.. i donno how will i be...
So I recently make him really angry, also wateva i said is not true, only to see how he will react. He actually really blow up and tats where i realise the hard way of wat will happen to us if we r having a big problem. It hits me really hard how much he meant to me up til now and how much we have an impact on each of our lives. Neither he nor I can survive if anything serious and bad where to happen.
I had better control of myself cos as days went by wit him.. the sacrifies he made for me.. n how upset i could make him... wateva he do wrong now, unintentionally of cos, i seldom get angry already.. if i do, it will be onli a few minutes.. den i will tell d devil in me tat its alrite and SMILE! cos i have done more wrong to him n he never take it to the heart.
Cos i am like that... if someone really deserves a pay back for all his/her kindness, i will automatically pay them back d same.. not d same but double more den wat the have done to me. So yea.. its killing me how i had to control my short temper alot now a days... but i noe its all worth it..
Everything is finally worth it to a guy lik him.. =)
Cheers
Ctcat